So here I go again on my own...

Wow! Readers, I have fallen off the wagon. Who knew that being a "Real Wife of La Vernia" would be so time consuming?! I never realized how easy it is to get distracted (although I am admittedly notorious for being distracted) and consumed by life that the one outlet I have has been neglected. It has been 2 1/2 weeks since I have written and even then it was only a single entry in a failed attempt to catch back up. The irony of it is, that I truly enjoy the release of writing in my blog as it gives me the stress relief to remember that every day is a gift. I will use this post to sum up some of the happenings, lessons and blessings I have had over my absence. This is yet another attempt to get on top of this and finish what I set out to do! So here I go again on my own....

I had a revelation over the last couple of weeks about myself. After the first failed attempt to buy a new vehicle I was ready to walk away and move on with life. However, overcome with thought of losing...this became a new challenge! So rather than leave it, I became consumed with it. Nothing mattered, but making the deal and proving that I would get the best of those car dealers and I would have my truck. Keep in mind that I truly did want out of the Jeep, I was looking for comfort, safety and even some additional conveniences, however the Jeep was good and fit for driving as I had for two years. After being hyper-focused and laser locked on getting the deal done I am the proud owner of a Fire Engine Red F150 Fx4 and I don't mind admitting that I LOVE IT!! However, in hind site I began to wonder if this was an act of determination or obsession. I also reflect on why I don't always use this same drive in my professional life. See last year around this time I was being "re-branded" and it took a lot of tears, anger and frustration for me to realize that with a few tweaks there was really nothing wrong with the brand I was. So why can I get hyper-focused on something like a truck, a dog, etc. and not quit until I am finished, but I don't use that same focus to work on marketing myself, by doing vs. saying? By setting limits and finishing? By having a strategy and a plan?  Think of where I would be! I'm pretty sure we all have those gifts that are also our biggest hindrances.

As I continue on my life journey, I realize that these are all lessons learned and that I am in the exact place God has intended for me to be at this time. It doesn't mean that we don't continue to move forward and we don't always strive for greatness, but it does mean that when we fall short or feel we have, there is a plan far greater than the one we have for ourselves. We are also created the way He intended us to be and as long as we are living every day in a Christ-like way we are living as He desires. So don't be so hard on yourself!

Today's Blessing: There is a plan for me so when I am feeling hopeless or inadequate, I know there is something bigger than me at work in my life.